and on the third day there were brownies

Ted Kennedy died today. I am so very sad. The Lion of the Senate. His friendship with Orrin Hatch gave me faith in humanity, or at the very least, american politicians. I miss my kids so much my stomach hurts and a little boy died on Bones and it's making me cry. I hate dropping them off with their dad. I really hope I get one of the houses I am trying to rent. They keep asking me if I have a house yet. It's been really hard living with DG, she sleeps all day and works all night. We can't really play in the house, they can't go in their room because it's too close to our room, if they cry I have to hustle them outside so they don't wake her, if they are outside they have to stay on one side so they don't make noise near the bedroom window, if they play with toys and we don't get them all picked up properly before she wakes it causes a clash. I dread her waking up at night because I know there will be something I missed that will piss her off. I make it sound so bad. It's not quite like that. It's just incredibly challenging trying to blend my family with someone who has lived alone for years and never with children. The icing on the cake is my unbelieveably stupid ex husband and his ridiculous and naive antics.
"You discern humanity in the wreck of a human body." Angelas boss on Bones just described her job like that. I like that. I love the idea of the kids I am teaching getting a second chance, an opportunity to wipe clean the slate of their prior educational experience and become happier people. These kids are SMART. Some come on so strong with the attitude that I can see why they struggled in regular school. The problem is that underneath they are incredibly discerning and intelligent and demand relevant, challenging curriculum. They have opened up to me so quickly. Usually it takes a few weeks for kids to be as accepting of me as they are after just a few days. I credit the school culture with that accomplishment. They expected us to be accepting and respectful, and were prepared to return the favor. The teachers I work with are, on the whole, very compassionate with very similar educational philosophies. My forte was always getting the kdis to love me so they would be willing to learn. Kids who don't love themselves are not going to find an inner motivation like they teach you in teacher college. You have to get them to want to do it for you. These kids want to do it for everyone in the school, from the principal to the security guard who teaches martial arts in the dojo. Have I mentioned that I love this school? A girl made brownies for all her teachers today. I started my THIRD DAY of school with BROWNIES! When asked "What's the occasion?" she replied "This school!" I heart my job.