just one blessed stable day please

Post#1
All over the place, went from giddy happy dancing joy joy to breakdown in tears over finances (no money for kids add meds or my own for that matter) in one night. blech.


Post#2
Ok so posting below the one I just put up - had another night like last where I was in a great mood, everything was going swimmingly, and then I am snapping at and cussing my girlfriend whose grave sin was to not want to look at the web page I wanted her to see. she wanted to watch a show she had been looking forward to. this might seem like nothing but it is the first time in the two years we have been together that I have done this to her and she was taken aback, to say the least. to her credit, after walking away with a very few choice words about the situation, she came back to me and held me while I cried my eyes out bacuse lets be honest, im sorry will only works so many times before she gets tired of hearing it and wants me out of her life. i ahve decided i do not like the geodon and need to get off it, if anything, i feel stable by day and loopy by night and i am sleeping too much. its not a good feeling at all. i would prefer to just be off of it and not have to worry about it.


I love you baby. I know you were wondering what I was typing, here it is.
I am so sorry for yelling at you. i don't want to lose you. my love, my heart, my soul mate. you are my only one.